I work very hard at my job, and often work late nights and compulsively check my email after I leave the office. No email can go unanswered before my head hits the pillow. Unfortunately, I work with doctors. I have concluded that they do not sleep. Ever. I will receive an email at 2 or 3 in the morning, and always feel the need to wake myself up and answer their questions. I have been in this position since I graduated from college (a little over 2 years ago), and have definitely learnt a lot about working for an institution, and how to work my way up the corporate ladder. I have made some great contacts along the way, and hope these will come in handy in the future. I am not sure where my career path is going to lead me, but I will not accept anything but success.
After a long day of meetings, answering people's questions, and explaining how to complete a project, I head to the gym, return home to do the laundry, clean furniture around the house, run miscellaneous errands, and/or begin dinner. I do LOVE to cook, but sometimes I am exhausted, and just want something to instantly appear with no effort involved.
There are also very, very few days (if any) where I am able to sit down and relax before ten or eleven p.m. I am ALWAYS doing something, and even when I am supposed to be "relaxing," I have a million things running through my head. When I eventually retire to my television at night, I am either cutting coupons to save money, making lists of lists of food to cook, items to buy, things to prep, and/or spending time on my personal appearance which is not limited to re-shaping my eyebrows, painting my nails, and straightening my hair. Due to these things, I very rarely find myself in bed before 12 or 1 in the morning.
Because of these actions, I drive myself crazy.
I think with the new year rolling around, I am going to make more of an effort to take time out for myself. It will be hard with my upcoming move with the boyfriend, but for my sanity (and his), I need to accept that I can not and do not have to be perfect. Don't get me wrong, I do love my life and am grateful for the people and things in it. And despite my neurotic tendencies, I do experience all of the fun things that accompany working hard. However, I need to accept that everything around me can not be perfect at all times.
I have to remind myself that...
